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fridgeflower) wrote2013-12-03 12:52 am
fridgeflower) wrote2013-12-03 12:52 am
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Right now, it was the waiting that was getting to Laurie more than anything. It was the hunger and thirst, the inability to move. Everything was aching. She'd long given up on trying to escape the cage, trying to find some weakness in all of this to exploit. There were no cracks, no weaknesses, nothing. Just waiting.
The last time the train came in, she told Julian that she was waiting for the other shoe to drop. The throw-away comment had played over and over in her mind for the past few days, since she'd woken up trapped. She regretted it so badly, saying that, as if not saying it would have made any difference. Who knows, though. Maybe it would have.
None of it really mattered, though. The aching, her inability to help herself, her stupidity... It didn't matter, because it was nearing the end. Her anger and determination had crumbled into fear, then slid down into a kind of hollow hopelessness, and now panic had surged up from under her exhaustion. COMPASS felt none of it. They had started grinding their captives down one by one, displaying them in scenes of torture, and there was no way out of it, and there was no way she wasn't next.
The last time the train came in, she told Julian that she was waiting for the other shoe to drop. The throw-away comment had played over and over in her mind for the past few days, since she'd woken up trapped. She regretted it so badly, saying that, as if not saying it would have made any difference. Who knows, though. Maybe it would have.
None of it really mattered, though. The aching, her inability to help herself, her stupidity... It didn't matter, because it was nearing the end. Her anger and determination had crumbled into fear, then slid down into a kind of hollow hopelessness, and now panic had surged up from under her exhaustion. COMPASS felt none of it. They had started grinding their captives down one by one, displaying them in scenes of torture, and there was no way out of it, and there was no way she wasn't next.